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Fri, Sep 13, 2002
ECHO & THE BUNNYMEN: "Flowers is Echo & The Bunnymen's finest hour since Ocean Rain."
HEDONISM:
An intrigue of early 90s New York nightlife.
NEW CHAPTER now online
From the Jamming! Archives:
U2 interviewed in 1984.
"It's not U2 that's creating this great art. . .There's something that works through us to create in this way."
MUSING ON A SEPTEMBER MOURNING
PART1:
My immediate reaction to September 11
PART 2: Messages from friends & family overseas
PART 3: Observations & quotes from others.
PART 4: LINKS
PART 5: COPING - 2 weeks later
iJamming! Wino/Muso:
JOHN ACQUAVIVA
"New world wines are just too techno for me."
Featured albums
(Hub, Slumber Party, DJ Harry, Spearhead, The Who tribute
)
Albums that sound different since September 11
(Charlatans UK, Arabian Travels, Cafe del Mar, Sugarcult)
Featured wine region 3:
SOUTHERN RHÔNE WHITES
Featured wine region 4:
SOUTHERN RHÔNE ROSÉS
iJamming! interview:
Jesse Hartman, aka LAPTOP
"Every New York band knows the meaning of failure"
MIX Albums:
Who, what and why you should bother (DB, Spooky, Jody, RSW, Bad Boy Bill)
FEATURED Wines (Langlois Cremant de Loire, Honig Sauvignon Blanc, Campbell's Muscat, Brumont Gros Manseng, Dr Frank Gewürtztraminer, Daubree CoteRotie, Dry Creek Chenin Blanc, Mas Saint Laurent Picpoul, Quivira Dry Creek)
The iJAMMING! interview: DAVID SYLVIAN
"I don't think people realize that life can become so exciting and interesting that it can draw you away for long periods of time from creating music - & why not?"
From the Keith Moon archives:
the JEFF BECK interview .
From Homework to the Disco:
DAFT PUNK
grows up and dumbs down
The iJAMMING! chat:
MARK PERRY

"If I was asked why Sniffin' Glue was so important, it was the way we conducted ourselves, the style of it, just the attitude. It had attitude in abundance didn't it?"
The Return of Shoegazing:
DOVES take New York by swarm
Forgotten Classics:
THE CHILLS: Brave Words
THE iJAMMING! Book Review:
SNIFFIN' GLUE: The Essential Punk Accessory
Musing with SALLY TAYLOR:
"I'm not interested in what the major labels have to offer."
From the JAMMING! archives: PAUL WELLER ON POP
Featured wine region 2:
CÔTES DU RHÔNE VILLAGES
From the JAMMING! archives: ALTERNATIVE TV
interviewed in 1978
TRAVIS.
Fran Healy explains why "you cannot own a song." (And why Liam Gallagher "is going to turn into a really great songwriter.")
Featured Artist Web Site:
LLOYD COLE
From the JAMMING! archives: The Story That Spawned Creation
Featured vine:
VIOGNIER:
Finally, a worthy rival to Chardonnay.
The iJAMMING! interview:
BOY GEORGE.
"Once you've had your go, what-ever it may be, they want you to piss off, and they can't bear it if you come back, they can't bear it."
SUPERDRAG
They love rock'n'roll but they don't want to deal with the hassle
From the JAMMING! archives: RAYMONDE in 1985
The full iJamming! Contents
MUSING ON A
SEPTEMBER MOURNING

PART 1: MY OWN THOUGHTS
CONTINUED FROM SECTION 1

My own experience of the devastation is unimpressive. I went into the bathroom around 8.45 Tuesday morning thinking about the Democratic Primary and whether to take a run in the Park before settling down to work; I emerged just twenty minutes later to hear that two planes had crashed into the World Trade Centers. Myself, at least, I was safe in my home. My wife Posie, however, was on her way into work, on the subway that runs directly under the World Trade Centers. That's where she was when the first plane hit; as the subways initially continued on their journeys, people got on at the next stop bewildered and amazed, but assuming there the collision had been either an accident, or at worst some foolish suicide in a Cessna or similar. By the time she got to work, the second plane had hit with that God-awful accuracy and, as we got on the phone to each other, she took painfully beautiful photographs from her 20th floor window while we struggled to take in the reality of what was happening. Then the buildings collapsed in front of us, me watching it on TV, her watching it out of her office window, and as news came in of the Pentagon being attacked and a further crash in Pennsylvania, I had to consider what was then a very strong possibility I might not see her again. She works next to the Empire State Building, a logical enough - and easily visible - target should there be more hijacked planes in the sky, which is precisely what the media was then telling us. The subway system was, of course, at a standstill by now. And all bridges back to Brooklyn were directly underneath that enormous thick cloud of smoke and soot and dust. Given the likelihood that the whole of lower Manhattan was going to either collapse or catch fire or indeed be blown up, we expressed our love for each other and struggled aloud to figure where she would go and how I would find her if she, like possibly millions of others, had to evacuate north of Manhattan, out to the Bronx and the suburbs beyond. So much of the past hour had already been like such a horror movie that the vision of a mass exodus back to the woods and forests from where we once emerged seemed all too real a possibility.

Armageddon didn't happen. Later in the day, with the situation under greater control, she was able to walk home, eight miles, across the Brooklyn Bridge, taking pictures as she went not out of some ghoulish curiosity, but because she often did take pictures of the city, her city as much as it is anyone else's. For my part, after I could watch the television no longer - and that was within the hour - I went to my son's school by bike, inhaling smoke and dust from that perilous cloud on what was otherwise such a glorious Indian Summer's day. (No coincidence that these attacks took place on a brilliant morning of maximum visibility.) I knew my son, who had just started first grade, would be safe at his school, and indeed he was; I found him contentedly watching a movie in the Auditorium, sheltered from the school yard and the horror of what was occurring just two miles away. I stayed at school through the afternoon helping make phone calls to ensure the kids had families to go home to. I'm glad to say that they all did, even among those whose parents worked in the building. In fact, from a purely personal point of suffering, I feel bizarrely, almost guiltily, untouched by the body count. I had no immediate family or close friends (at least such as I currently know of) in those towers who were not able to escape in time. I didn't see the planes hit or the buildings collapse with my own eyes. Neither, thankfully, did my son. (Many other neighborhood children did witness events from the windows or yards of their Brooklyn schools; I am not sure how this will affect them over coming weeks and months.) And of course, my wife knows that her own traumatic vision pales into insignificance compared to other people's personal losses and experiences.

Above: The unbelievable sight from my wife Posie's 20th Floor office balcony on the morning of September 11, 2001. The World Trade Centers on fire, and then suddenly, no longer there. Please click on the images to see at a larger size. Please do not use without permission. Copyright Posie Strenz 2001.
Above: Two sad shots from Posie's late afternoon walk home, finally, across a now near-deserted Brooklyn Bridge. The fires have been smouldering ever since. Please click on the images to see at a larger size. Please do not use without permission. Copyright Posie Strenz 2001.

But as anyone who has visited this city knows, New York lays claim to being the world's biggest village and we're all touched by this disaster through our collective suffering. I have neighbors who are missing family, friends who are missing neighbors, neighbors who are missing friends, friends who are missing family, and so on and so ad sickening in finitum. I know that the next time I go to see an England game, many of the Wall Street contingent will be absent. Here at home, twelve members of our local fire department - Squad One, whose placement in the middle of this community, right next to the Park Slope Food Co-op, rendered them familiar and friendly faces to all - stormed into action on Tuesday morning across the Brooklyn Bridge within minutes of the first crash, and never returned. We had a candlelight parade here on Friday night and through the uncontrollable tears for them - and cheers for them too - I felt as much pride in my inadvertently chosen neighborhood as much as in my specifically chosen city. Standing outside the fire station, my son kissed away some of his mother's tears and then told me he had said "nice things about the firemen to God in my brain." I kissed him through my own tears and thanked him for doing so. It would be so much harder to get through this without experiencing the unconditional love and joy of innocent young children. (I do not believe we are born with sin; I believe we are all born pure.) Campbell turned six years old on Thursday. We took cupcakes into school that day for the traditional birthday celebration; it was, after all, hardly the childrens' fault that this calamity took place and we must ensure they experience as much love as possible.

I want to stress that last sentence because my son's school has a sizeable Arab student body from the long-standing Middle Eastern community on Atlantic Avenue, well-known for its mosques, boutiques, cafes and restaurants. In another city, in another country, that Avenue would have been an ugly place to be in the days following the attack. I'm pleased to report, however, that there has been a healthy sense of calm around Atlantic Avenue since Tuesday, that people who live here know these long-term inhabitants are not our enemy. Indeed, when several Arab-American children failed to show at school on Thursday, staff called the nervous parents to guarantee the childrens' safety and to stress that the childrens' presence was needed to join in the collective healing process. I have read in the papers about blind retaliation, verbal or physical, Arab kids being beaten up at schools, attacks in Arizona, but people in New York seem to know better than that. This was, after all, the one city that didn't go off in the aftermath of the Rodney King riots; this is a city, in fact, whose worst race riots in twenty years were confined to one community and resulted in but two deaths, and the first of those most certainly an accident. (I am talking about Crown Heights, which has healed greatly in the ten years since its ugly inflammation.)

It would be so much harder to get through this without experiencing the unconditional love and joy of innocent young children.

Campbell and cousin Cooper one week before their world changed.

I have no more idea what will happen globally in coming days and weeks than anyone else. I sense enormous fear from my European friends about Bush leading us all into a World War; I sense enormous anger and a need for vengeance from your "average" (if such a thing exists) American. But as I say, in New York, it's too painful to get into that. We are only just now moving from complete numbness and shock into what I fear will prove an almost unmanageable grief. I understand the nation needed a day of mourning on Friday the 14th, and it especially aids us that the rest of the world showed such solidarity, but we were not yet ready for that in New York City. (A memorial in Central Park has been announced for September 23rd; perhaps then we will be able to move from grief to mourning. [It was later cancelled due to security worries.]) Even as a grown man whose personal losses are at a bare minimum, I find myself choking back tears at sudden moments, especially when talking about the losses; I have suddenly and inexplicably stopped having dreams; I woke up on Friday morning instead to find myself crying into the pillow. It's going to get an awful lot worse before it gets better, but better, ultimately, I believe it must get. I have to maintain that hope.

There are other scattered thoughts . . . How, growing up in London in the seventies and eighties, I was familiar with terrorist attacks from the regular IRA bombs, and yet how the death toll from 30 years of the Irish "troubles" was equaled in one evil morning. . . How, while Manhattan burned and thousands died, Brooklyn went oddly about its business, simply because it could. The mail was still delivered, the buses continued running, the shops stayed opened. . . How prevalent the silence has been in the subsequent days, not just because of the lack of airplanes flying overhead, not just because of less people have been going to work, but because kids have stopped playing in the street, adults have stopped playing music in their homes - my usually active stereo has been silent for days now - and largely because, when we meet strangers in the streets, we simply don't know what to say to them, so we shake our heads in a show of mutual amazement and walk on. . . How surreal it was to visit the Brooklyn Heights Promenade on Wednesday morning, staring at that murderous cloud spewing from Manhattan where once stood those starkly beautiful Twin Towers, and how quiet it was, despite so many thousands of people ...How Americans have always held an awesome admiration for British morale and courage during the Blitz, and how New Yorkers have shown how those same characteristics in fact lie just beneath our usually brittle surface. . . How I have always wished that Americans were forced to spend some time traveling during their youth to forge closer ties with the people of other countries, and how I wish that now more than ever as I hear those who have never been to New York calling upon us to bomb other cities in retaliation. . . How bizarre it was to do a run into the Drop-Off/Volunteer HQ at the Javits Center on the West Side and 34th Street and encounter what looked like an earthquake relief center, with the army directing traffic, military vehichles filling in the streets, trucks hauling mangled, dust-covered cars up the West Side, hundreds of young and old people helping sort mountains of donations into barrels as dozens more volunteers of all persuasions pleaded to be of service. . . And how I've hung an American flag in my window for the first time in life and what that says about me. It is a printed poster given away free in Union Square and its reads, "We will not let them destroy our Spirit! America will overcome and rebuild." I believe in every word.

How the city once looked: a snapshot I took back in 1990.

But I must end this hopefully cathartic process by returning to another outdoor event from my seemingly perfect summer. In the week of its 225th Anniversary, during August, the Battle of Brooklyn was re-enacted on its original grounds - and for the very first time. Sometimes referred to as the Battle of Long Island, it was the first major battle of the Revolutionary War, and yet it tends to be ignored in the history books, not least because it was a terrible defeat for the Americans. I want to give some historical information first and I will then render it relevant to the present: With the ink still drying on the Declaration of Independence, and with George Washington struggling to correlate a functioning army, the British sent 300 warships (twice the size of the Spanish Armada) to New York Harbor to nip the Colonies' revolt in the bud. Rather than take Manhattan, already infamous for vice and criminality, the British settled their troops among the more conservative Loyalists of Staten Island. (Nothing changes there!) Washington had many of his own troops stationed in the fort around Cobble Hill and Brooklyn Heights, also across the water from Manhattan. Battles in those days were fought between troops, in the open, and so it was that on the morning of August 27, 1776, a ragtag American army of 5,000 confronted a well-trained army of apparent equal size in what is now Prospect Park, only to be outflanked from both the rear and the sides by a further 15,000 elite British soldiers. The result was a slaughter, but as the surviving Americans retreated, a regiment of 400 volunteers from Maryland repeatedly and relentlessly attacked British units at what is now known as the "Old Stone House" on Fifth Avenue and Third Street so as to give the remaining Americans an opportunity to retreat across the Gowanus Creek. In doing so, 256 of those Marylanders laid down their lives in front of that then remote Stone House. By the time the retreat was fully finished, less than ten of the Marylanders had made it.

So thorough, in fact, was the British victory that day that rather than attack the American fort at Brooklyn Heights and finish the rebels off, the British commanders prepared Terms of Surrender they assumed would be readily met; yet the following night George Washington managed to withdraw his entire remaining army across the East River into Manhattan in rowing boats under cover of fog, an amazing and fortuitous retreat every bit as important for the future of the planet as the more visible retreat from Dunkirk in World War II. The Americans lived to fight another day - and another. And another. Though he was rapidly chased up the Hudson river, Washington gradually turned the disorganized volunteers from competing States into a trained Army. The battle for independence went on for several more years. But eventually it was won and a new and great nation - The United States of America - became a reality.

I am no student of military history. I don't revel in war. I wish man never had to fight his fellow man. But I attach great personal relevance to the Battle of Brooklyn. For one, it was fought more or less on my street, and one should always know one's local history for fear of otherwise repeating it. For another, it was fought between the Americans and the British - two nations so firmly allied these days that it seems unfathomable to imagine my birth nation slaughtering people from my chosen home. It helps to be reminded that yesterday's enemies - the British and the Americans, in this instance - will almost inevitably become tomorrow's allies, and that we should never hate the entire people of any other nation, because we will ultimately find that we have more in common with them than we have that which separates us. It's important for me to know that my birth nation, Britain, has a past every bit as imperfect as any other country I could care to mention, and that the U.S.A was a prototype for freedom. It helps that I am reminded there was once a time when war was confined to the battlefield, between clearly visible enemies with stated goals and written claims, and was not targeted at innocent people by cowards who will not declare or admit themselves.

Perhaps most importantly, I have frequently marveled at those 400 volunteers from Maryland who bravely laid down their lives to save so many others - as did a similar number of firemen and police this September 11 - and thereby keep alive their dying dream of a free nation. When I stand on the children's playground that surrounds the (replicated) Old Stone House, or have a pint at the English-style pub opposite, it is almost impossible to imagine over 250 American bodies lying dead on the ground in front of me. But imagine it I often have done - both to understand the sacrifice they made for this nation to become free, and to remind myself of the horrors of war and how fortunate I am never to have experienced it firsthand. Some twelve hours of fighting between 25,000 troops that long day 225 years ago brought a combined death toll stood of around 2300, probably the biggest single daily loss of life New York City ever expected to endure; yet in just an hour and a half on September 11, more than twice as many people were eliminated - all of them innocent civilians who went to work with no idea that they were about to become casualties of war.

And so. . . I now have a much more personal experience of the horrors of war than I ever desired. I pray for peace. For all of us, all around the planet. And I hope that such horror never be inflicted on innocent people again, anywhere in the world. If September 11 proved anything, it proved how small this planet really is, how closely tied we all are, and how united we must stand. Not as one country, or one race, but as one species, one people. May peace be with all of you.


Tony Fletcher, Friday September 14 through Sunday September 16, 2001.

PART 2: MESSAGES FROM FRIENDS AND FAMILY OVERSEAS
and REACTIONS TO THIS ESSAY
PART 3: THE OBSERVATIONS AND QUOTATIONS OF OTHERS.
PART 4: LINKS

PART 5: COPING

I always leave my editorials with a picture of myself and Campbell. This one was taken at North South Lake in the Catskills in August 2001 by my mother. I love my mother. I love my kid. I love my wife. I love this life. I can only pity people who have no love in their hearts.
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